My autobiography

I should begin my first entry with this: I contradict myself most of the time.
At the moment my mind is empty so I am gonna begin with just giving some information about me:
Full name: Đào Tuấn Dũng (Dũng is my given name, Đào is my surname)
Date of birth: March 12th, 1990
I like baseball, heavy metal and socializing
I was born in Hanoi and I've been in Hanoi for most of the time. I've never been out of Northern Vietnam. It sounds local I know. I always wanted to go to the south to see the seashores there cuz they say those in Nha Trang are the most beautiful.
Now I study Business Administration, however I've realized that I'm not good with money.

(This part is being written in a different day from the above part. Maybe it'll sound like some kind of confession. I'm being really emotional)

Ive been afraid and hesitated and lacked self-esteem since i was small. When I was in primary school, I was always under the impression that I was worse than anyone in class. When I was in secondary school, I had the fear that my friends in 5th grade would look down on me since I went a school that was less popular than most of them. When I failed the exam to my desired high school I felt like my life was about to end. Yeah at that time my life's goal was that simple. I was lucky to have my parents caring for me all the time. I was so dependent on them, even now I live mostly on their money and care. 

I have done many stupid things in my life. The most stupid thing was to indirectly make my grandmother unable to walk when I was 15. That's been haunting me ever since. She never told me anything like I was the one responsible but the feeling kind of bit me. Ive been trying to see her, talk to her, let her hold me everyday hoping I could forget about it. We never know how precious something is till the moment we have lost it forever.

I have this friend Van, we were together for 7 years from 3th grade to 7th grade. All the time I wanted to look better than him, play sports better than him and do better at exams than him. I didn't. He was a great friend, I stayed at his house and had lunch with his family almost every school-day then. Sometimes even Sunday. Now he's studying abroad. When he came back to Hanoi a month ago, I haven't even met him though he called me and said he wanted to see me. I said I was busy. Being busy is just an excuse. I was jealous of him. Hope I can see him several times before he flew back to Holland in September. 

There are so many things i always want to turn back time to do. I could have saved my grandma's leg, could have seen my friend, could have mended the toy I broke several days ago. But that never happens. However they brought lessons besides regrets. Hope that I'm not gonna make such a mistake that brings a regret for life. 

I like Andrew's idea when he said "post less information online and make people understand you for real". So here are my goals:
- Help UC students understand Vietnamese, both language and culture. I know many of them have Vietnamese blood in their veins and they long so much to know about Việt Nam, so I want them to know that they're welcome here. :)
- Improve my knowledge of Vietnam, especially that from the viewpoint of foreigners.
- Make friends and learn more English.
- Have some stupid and crazy moments with UC friends.